Monday, October 29, 2007
come out of the shade.
why do we always seem to make the decisions that we know right from the start will bring us into a dead end? it's as though we all have this weird innate mechanism within us that constantly keeps drawing us into traps we set ourselves, the same mechanism which drags us full speed through each route before we slam straight into a brick wall. a wall which we were so sure wasn't there before. or was it? the question of choice. whether or not we really do have the luxury of being able to choose where we want to go, what we want to do. if we really do have a choice, then why is it some choices are still made when it was so painfully obvious right from the start that they never should have been chosen? maybe its the illusion of choice. we are led to think that we have a choice, when in actual fact everything is predetermined and we are merely pawns in some warped game of snakes and ladders played by some more powerful, omniscient force. this "choice" we think we have, and the subsequent decision might already have been determined right from the start. so maybe there is no choice. and there is no other choice because all the others end up with me being right where i am right now, stuck and unable to move forwards.-
pardon this long, rambling post. its simply too late at night.
michelle at 1:28 AM
Friday, October 26, 2007
airport disco.
photos taken in the car during our trip to labrador park, then to cach's place to wipe out the stash of food she secretly hoards at home.
this week has seen us all leading a healthy, sporty lifestyle, what with touch rugby under the bloody hot sun yesterday afternoon then floorball today. but its nice to just spend time away from the study room and do something else instead. activities where we don't have to think about stupid irritating things like shares and debentures and mortgages and other mind-boggling stuff.
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Things happened in half time
I'm sick of the bends
I wait, but I'm too tired to play pretend
No time for half-hearted goodbyes
I'll turn on the spotlight and flee from the scene
michelle at 5:13 PM
Friday, October 19, 2007
souvenirs.
we lost last night and its weird that somehow we all just accepted it so matter of factly. maybe its cos we already expected this outcome right from the start, we really were not ready for the season at all. the scoreline at the end was still hard to swallow, because it made it seem like we just rolled over and died, but it wasn't the case. the scoreline didn't reflect all the effort, hard work, tears, sweat that we put in for the past few months and even during the game itself. it is slightly disappointing that after everything, we had to lose in this manner. but then again, nothing else can be done to change the colour of our medals. i'm glad and relieved its all over and this time it will probably be the last time. so here's to the past 7 years.this must be how it feels like when the feeling goes.
michelle at 11:09 AM
Monday, October 15, 2007
dizzy.
I told you as I haven't, I never felt this wayYou said "I have this shot that stops my clock"
Baby it's okay
You said you'd never have regrets
Jesus is there someone yet who got that wish?
Did you get yours, babe?
michelle at 12:11 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
go.
and so yesterday was a hectic start to a busy week, what with school, netball and a bbq all squashed into one day. after school the team headed to sp where we had to wait for the rain to stop before we could start our game in swamp-like conditions. after the game i headed all the way down to sentosa for stump's bbq where the food was good and the company even better. now for the pics:how come it seems like i ate so little when there is SO MUCH FOOD IN THE PIC. stump you have some explaining to do.
our dear old extremely long-winded events organiser (whose face is a bit blurry because of the well-placed hand thank goodness. heh heh.)
all of us:)
and lastly, the epitome of beauty. for the blind and/or desperate.
nothing answered, nothing gained.
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But we fade the forests, fracture the tide
We go blind when we needed to see
michelle at 12:29 AM
Sunday, October 7, 2007
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we do what we need to be free.michelle at 11:17 AM
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
write what you know.
take your time, hurry up, the choice is yours, don't be late. take a rest, as a friend, as an old memory. when i swear that i don't have a gun, no i don't have a gun. am i the only one? in a shape of things to come, too much poison come undone, cos there's nothing else to do. i've got seven reasons and almost every time, it ends up with you leaving. and out in the garden where i planted the seeds, there is a tree as old as me. by the cracks of the skin i climbed to the top, i climbed the tree to see the world. this could be the last train.michelle at 4:20 AM